OBACHAN'S SCRIBBLES

It's hard to believe that it's almost the end of 2009. Wasn't it just yesterday that I was complaining about having to work on the January first? Well, the big difference this year is that I am really taking it easy in the holiday season. I'm off from Dec. 29 to Jan. 3rd. Six solid days without work! It hasn't happened in my life for a very long time.

Today was a big cleaning day. I never like doing major cleaning on a gloomy, cloudy day, but now I'm feeling good in a tidy room.

For me 2009 was a year of big transition. It wasn't necessarily "hard," but I felt really lost many times. When I was living all by myself, I had hard times, but I thought I knew which way I was going, and I was ready to take responsibility if I made a bad decision. But now... I feel haunted by questions like "What am I doing here?" "What did I come here for? " and "Which way am I going or do I want to go?" all the time.

It's difficult to live with someone AND be yourself, isn't it?